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		<description><![CDATA[[A dusty desert dive bar in the Antelope Valley. A clean-shaven  South Asian gentleman enters wearing a collared shirt and jeans.  He nods, cocksure, to the bartendress, who recognizes him and smiles. He takes a seat at a dark corner table, gestures to order a glass of merlot, and begins to read his Nook by the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><em>[A dusty desert dive bar in the Antelope Valley. A clean-shaven  South Asian gentleman enters wearing a collared shirt and jeans.  He nods, cocksure, to the bartendress, who recognizes him and smiles. He takes a seat at a dark corner table, gestures to order a glass of merlot, and begins to read his Nook by the light of a neon Coors Light sign.  After some time, a large, tattooed man with an eagle emblazoned on his cap approaches with his bottle of beer and another glass of wine.]</em></p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Howdy.</p>
<p><em>[The South Asian gentleman looks up, oblivious to the man's approach.  Assessing the other's demeanor and moderate inebriation, and further recognizing that he is quite literally in a corner, the South Asian switches to his default defensive mode - completely frank, yet artificially composed and forcing a calm eloquence. What will happen, will happen - might as well face it, internally nervous as one may be.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Sir.</p>
<p>AMERICAN &#8211; Well I got you this. Corinne &#8212; <em>(</em><em>he gestures to the bartendress, who flashes an apologetic look)</em>&#8211; said  this was what you was drinking.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well thank you.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  I&#8217;ve got a question for you.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>[nods at the second, brimming glass of merlot]</em> You&#8217;ve earned the right to ask it.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Well, I see you here. You know, walk in all quiet-like, sitting by yourself.  And, you know, let me just say up front, I&#8217;m an ultra-conservative, so let me just get that out there.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I see.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  There&#8217;s people around, you know. That I&#8217;ve seen and met.  And, you know, I don&#8217;t want to offend you or nothing, so, tell me when to leave, I swear, I&#8217;ll leave you alone.  But you know, here we have all this terrorism.  And I&#8217;m curious. So, some people would say, here&#8217;s a guy who fits a certain profile. And they look at you. And I&#8217;m wondering, do you notice that?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>(swirls his glass thoughtfully, nervously)</em> Sometimes.  I grew up in Idaho.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Born there?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Raised. I was born in Seattle.  <em>(pause)</em> This is my country, I have never lived anywhere else.</p>
<p>AMERICAN: <em> (chuckles</em>) No man, you don&#8217;t have to justify anything to me. I&#8217;m just curious, thats all.</p>
<p><em>[The bartendress comes over.]</em></p>
<p>BARTENDRESS:  Norm, please.  He&#8217;s got his glass of wine, he&#8217;s reading. You shouldn&#8217;t bother him.  Your wife is waiting at home, now come on, finish up and get home.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  She&#8217;s OK. Hey, I&#8217;m being polite. Sir, am I being polite?  Corinne, I&#8217;m having a conversation. Now let me have my conversation.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I&#8217;m fine. It&#8217;s fine. He has been OK by me so far.</p>
<p><em>[With a significant look, the bartendress returns to her other duties.]</em></p>
<p>AMERICAN:  So, I just wanted to know, have you felt that?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Felt what?</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  That everyone&#8217;s watching you.  You know, I&#8217;ve seen it, I know it happens.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well, now? Certainly. And like I said, I grew up in Idaho.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  You think it&#8217;s unfair? And man, just tell me to shut up, I&#8217;ll leave. I&#8217;m not trying to cause trouble.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well.  I&#8217;ve never been the subject of malicious racism. Ever.  But I&#8217;ve been there where people just don&#8217;t understand.  They are hurtful, but not intentionally so.  They just don&#8217;t understand.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Like how?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well&#8230; like growing up in a rural state.  No brown people there, right?  <em>(chuckles nervously)</em> Like after 9/11. I think I was &#8220;randomly searched&#8221; about 10 times in a row.  It became a joke to me, I would already have my shoes off, luggage open when they called me, and I&#8217;d step forward like I was expecting it, which I was. Got some red faces, made it worth it.  Might as well find a laugh.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Well, you know, you&#8217;ve got the look.</p>
<p><em>[A beat.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I can&#8217;t argue with that.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:   I&#8217;m a Marine.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Ah. Presently?</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  <em>(irritated)</em> No.  now I&#8217;m a trucker.  But once a Marine, always a Marine,. <em> (pointedly)</em> You understand that?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN: <em>(quickly)</em> Of course, sir. I appreciate your service.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  <em>(just as pointedly)</em> And have you served?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I&#8230; I am not quite cut out to be a soldier, sir.  But I do work for the U.S. Government.  I am an engineer.  I&#8230; have sworn an oath, as you have.  To uphold the public interest, and research things of benefit to the nation and the world.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Hmm. Well, I appreciate your service too then.  So.  You hunt up there in Idaho?  Good hunting. that&#8217;s what my friend says.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I loved the freedom, the relaxed pace, and the presence of the outdoors, sir.  But I&#8217;m not really much of a hunter or fisher.  Raised Buddhist; not much of one for weapons. <em> (quickly)</em> I&#8217;m not much of one for preventing others from having weapons either, mind you.  I&#8217;m just not fond of them myself.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Yeah?  <em>(the South Asian gulps, wondering if he spoke too frankly)</em> Well you&#8217;re honest.  I respect that.  And you look me in the eye.  You believe that don&#8217;t you?  You really do.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well&#8230;. yes.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Huh.  Well, I disagree.  I disagree, you hear?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Yes, sir.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:   But you know, that&#8217;s what America&#8217;s about, you know?  I&#8217;m a man.  You&#8217;re a man.  We look each other in the eye, and speak our minds.  And we&#8217;re here in a bar having a drink together.  That&#8217;s honesty, and damn the consequences.  That&#8217;s American.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Yes.</p>
<p><em>[Pause.]</em></p>
<p>AMERICAN:  I like that.  You know, I grew up&#8230; I grew up, back then.  And I remember my parents saying, &#8220;hey, there&#8217;s a nigger.&#8221;  That&#8217;s just what they said, you know?  I so I grew up with that.  And so, this black kid, on my block &#8211; I grew up in south L.A. &#8211; so this black kid, man, he was like my best friend.  And, just from what my parents said, I remember I said to him one day, &#8220;hey nigger.&#8221;  And he got all upset, and I remember that sinking feeling, like I did something really wrong, but I couldn&#8217;t understand.  And his parents, they come out and yell at me.  I didn&#8217;t know.  I just knew that you call black people niggers.</p>
<p><em>[The South Asian carefully swallows some wine, as if to buy time on his response.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>(carefully)</em> You cannot be blamed for what you didn&#8217;t know.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Exactly, right?  And so, later I read up on all this.  And you know, he is one of my best friends, ok?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Of course.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  I just said what I knew.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>(cautiously)</em> America&#8230; we are not perfect, but we certainly speak our minds, eh?</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  <em>(laughs)</em> Haha! Yes we do. Fuck.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  We have problems, but we talk about them&#8230; we face them.  I&#8217;ve traveled, and &#8211;</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Hey, I&#8217;ve traveled.  I&#8217;m a Marine.  I know.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Of course, sir.  Then you know, that other countries, even some of those that criticize us for having these racial issues, have worse issues themselves.  They just don&#8217;t face it.  They hide it.  Or pretend its something else.  Or their country is too homogenous to even have the issue come up.  I studied in France for a few months, I love France &#8211;</p>
<p><em>[The American nearly gags on his beer as he sputters all over the table.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  (quickly) &#8212; but, I also noticed they refuse to look at their own racial problems.  They don&#8217;t even keep demographics on that.  The problem doesn&#8217;t exist.  Americans take it, and face it, and at least try to improve on what was honestly a shaky idea.  &#8221;All men are created equal.&#8221;  How long did it take to live up to that?</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Yeah well.  We still ain&#8217;t.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>(laughs)</em> Ok!</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Nobody&#8217;s perfect, man.  But yeah.  Strive to live up to that shit.  You think they even knew?  Those founding fathers.  What we face today, you know?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I doubt it.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Yeah.  It&#8217;s weird man.  Well. One more question, I promise.   And then I&#8217;ll leave you alone.  And you don&#8217;t have to answer this. So today, when we have a President, that&#8230; well, I&#8217;ll say it, he&#8217;s not really our President, and I&#8217;ve got proof. You know, he was actually born in&#8230; in Kenya. And so we have this situation.  When shit hits the fan&#8230; And I&#8217;m not saying it will, but if it does.  Whose side are you on?</p>
<p><em>[Pause.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Well, like I said, I&#8217;ve sworn an oath, to the office of the President, and whoever sits in that that Office.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Yeah, but forget that.  He&#8217;s not our President.  So what&#8217;s right?  Forget about your job, man, I won&#8217;t tell nobody, hell, I don&#8217;t even know your name.  Just man to man.  Whose side are you on?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Forget about my job?  That ties into it though.  I am a citizen, this is my country.  And more, here I have sworn an oath.  That is in my personal ethics to uphold.</p>
<p>AMERICAN: (grudgingly) Yeah well.  I know about oaths.  I guess I have to respect that.  <em>(long pause)</em> You won&#8217;t answer.  OK.  You don&#8217;t have to.  More than enough from me anyways.  <em>(pause)</em> Thanks for putting up with me.</p>
<p><em>[He puts out his hand, which the South Asian shakes.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN: Sir.  Thanks for the wine.</p>
<p>AMERICAN: I can&#8217;t stand the shit.  This here is a cold beer.  But you&#8217;re welcome.  Hey thanks.  I enjoyed this.  I&#8217;m just honest that&#8217;s all.  Hope I didn&#8217;t scare you out of coming back here.  You try the steak?  Or you Hindu or something?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Buddhist.  And I love the steak here.</p>
<p>AMERICAN: Not a good Buddhist, are you?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  <em>(laughs)</em> Fair point, sir.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Ok.  Well it&#8217;s good steak.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  I know.</p>
<p>BARTENDRESS: <em>(awkwardly piping up from the bar, while pretending she wasn&#8217;t listening to every word)</em> He&#8217;s told me before it&#8217;s the best in the valley.</p>
<p><em>[The American turns slowly, as she laughs awkwardly.]</em></p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Am I closed out, honey?</p>
<p>BARTENDRESS: It&#8217;s on your tab, Norm.  And there&#8217;s a taxi outside.  Your wife&#8217;s waiting.</p>
<p>AMERICAN:  Yeah.  <em>(glances back at the South Asian)</em> Hey, I&#8217;ll see you later.  Thanks.</p>
<p><em>[The American exits.  The South Asian watches him go, then gestures for his check.  The bartendress walks over.]</em></p>
<p>BARTENDRESS:  I&#8217;m sorry. You ok?  He asked. I was watching the whole time, I promise.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  No worries.  Not the first time.  Could I get the check?</p>
<p>BARTENDRESS:  I think you&#8217;re just fine.</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  He brought over one of those right?  Did he get both?</p>
<p>BARTENDRESS: I think you&#8217;re just fine.</p>
<p><em>[A beat.]</em></p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN:  Thank you.  <em>(he responds to her smile)</em> Good night.</p>
<p>BARTENDRESS:  Good night.  And see you next time?</p>
<p>SOUTH ASIAN: Sure.</p>
<p><em>[The South Asian exits into the desert night.]</em></p>
<p><em>scene.</em></p>
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